The Great Search Of My Identity

OH geez

2012-02-23T06:49:00.000-08:00

GEEZ it's been, what, 3 months, since i updated. and the updates recently(by recently, i mean months ago) has been so.... immature, eh? sorry 'bout that.

~~butsincenobody'sreading,youknowicankeeponrantingandgoingonwiththisattitude~~

So I really have a VERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERY LOOOOOOONG list of things to say but since i'm starting to get sleepy, i'll just make it short.

first and foremost, thanks a bunch to a group of helpful, very dear friends of mine, consisting of Ika, Shuuuu, Aalina, Penguin, Meen, Najwa, and not forgetting dearests Meli, D, Trisya, Syalin, and adibah, OH and the o-mighty Haiqal and Sarah for helping me with the class makeover. In a single evening we did a lot of changes on the board. Very satisfying in fact. :D I love you guys so freaking much. Till death do us apart :D CHEERS!

next, i shall skip it because it is totally immature and hurtful. so yeah.

and now, oh yeah. I was gonna talk about my course that was held last week but, meh, that could wait too.

oh, and you people should really know that there has been tonnes of non-stop drama and semua tu dah berkait with me. Although it does matter a little bit since my friend is involved.

GOOD NEWS!

my BM is getting worse by the minute.

i'm making crappy History notes for my own good.

school is fine.

and i guess that's all for now.

Till tomorrow, then.

but i can't promise since i have a billion homeworks to do.

thanks a bunch, teachers. #notethesarcasm

stuck with twitter gahgahgahgahgahgah

toodliedoots poops

Dude, where'd you put your guts? And, jangan dok fikir aku nak ambil tau sangat 'bout what you do.

2011-12-10T23:22:00.000-08:00

The title says it all.
Please.
Takkan you cannot back up your own self kot?
I mean, where'd you put your guts, man?
Seriously.
I didn't even have a problem with you until you dok behave like this.
Tak teringin nak speak yourself out, is it?
-..-
Andand.....
Kalau kau tak attend class/school or anything, jangan ingat aku nak tau apa alasan kau.
Nobody wants to know why you're absent unless they ask you.
Plus....
Takkanlah I want to spare time for you.
If I didn't reply, it means I don't care, I don't want to know, or...
Bloody hell, who are you to me?
You're just an ordinary 'friend'.....
You're not in the BFFL circle.....

=="
You'd probably be reading this and you would feel like it's you.
But you might as well be ignorant and tak take this seriously.
Not to be RUDE or anything.
And a word of advice, don't be such a complainer.

KTHXBAI

Kalau nak marah me, I'd probably hang up sooner.
Or I won't be picking up my phone.
=..=
Tak payah waste credit untuk buat fake calls kat aku.
Jgn desperate sangat.

2011-11-13T05:34:00.000-08:00

SORRY. YEAH FYI, I GET CARRIED AWAY WHEN I HAVE FUN AND ENDED UP TAKING THINGS TOO SERIOUSLY. IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THAT THEN I'M TOTALLY FINE WITH IT BECAUSE I'M ALREADY USED TO BEING LIKE THAT BECAUSE I TAKE ALMOST EVERYTHING VERY SERIOUSLY, EVEN BOARD GAMES. AND I'M TIRED OF YOUR INSENSITIVITY, FYI. DON'T THINK EVERYONE CAN TAKE JOKES POSITIVELY. I CAN'T. I DON'T. ESPECIALLY WHEN YOUR JOKES GET CARRIED AWAY. MULUT TU TOLONG JAGA SIKIT, JANGAN SAMPAI ORANG MARAH PASAL WHAT YOU SAID WHEN YOU DON'T ACTUALLY MEAN IT. JAGA SIKIT CAKAP TU KALAU DENGAN AKU. I AM VERY SENSITIVE.

K THANKS. KALAU NAK BUAT TAK PUAS HATI DENGAN AKU, SILAKAN. TAK AMBIL PEDULI PUN.

AND IF YOU THINK I'M IMMATURE, I AM! BUT I'M BETTER THAN YOU.

*SO HOPING YOU'RE READING THIS

KTHXBAI

**POST NI SGT MENYEMAK :) SEMUA PASAL HANG. THANKS A LOT FOR NOTHING. NOW, LEAVE.

Please, a favour that I ask you, whoever you are -sigh-

2011-09-28T07:21:00.000-07:00

OK so I'm not trying to hurt anyone or anything through this post so I am really sorry if anyone feels offended, that is anyone who reads my lame lame lame lame lame lame lame lame lame lame blog. :)

Everything is actually confusing my mind right now, not that I give a piece of shit about these things but, well, it's kind of disturbing when you don't have anything to think/say, and you start to think about these confusing situations and conversations etc.

It's nothing personal but I and some people (well, actually, specific people) quarrel on the simplest and smallest thing you can ever dream of. Well, you can guess why we fight and you'll be like, "LAAAA, liddat oso you guys mau fight ah? Haiyoooo ini budak2 zaman sekarang manyak susah mau gaaaaaadoooooo aja.x ada menda lain kah?...." ok i know i'm starting to crap and exaggerate. But seriously and I mean SERIOUSLY this has got to end somehow and someday. Because these kind of fights really do tire me down. Plus, sekarang kan nak exam dah, so taktau lah nak teruskan ke tak.

I know it's partially my fault and, who knows I actually am the one who started this cold war? But to the ones that understand what I mean, please forgive my mulut yang suka cakap banyak ni because it's my nature and I always have this resentment that I keep deep in my heart. To be truthful, most teens/tweens keep their resentment even though they asked for forgiveness from/forgave someone.

I just can't control myself and neither can you. I don't really mind if you don't want to accept my apology, not that this thing ain't important to me. But I have done my part to stop this........ whatever this actually is. And please, I don't want things to really turn out so bad and it affects all this crap things we're gonna get through.

And to be frank............ (i hate being frank.)

Everyone is important to me and I try my best to provide an equal justice to everyone and everything because I don't want to hurt anyone and anything just because of what I said or did. And I just hope one day everyone / anyone that listens to what I frankly tell them about what I feel about them won't get offended because it's from my point of view and it's not even half important.

Sigh

i keep saying these kind of things but I get scared because I'm really not that confident to tell people about what crosses my mind because I actually think about what people will say about me.

I'm sorry and I'm truly sorry.

I beg you, everyone who reads this, to really tell me what you feel about me. Because things are getting too hard for me.

Please.

Crying

2011-09-15T22:52:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I feel extra stupid when I start to cry about some nonsense and people don't get my feelings.

And I ALWAYS think that I cry too much.

But on average, women are most likely to cry 30 to 64 times a year.

Sigh.

Seems like I really just can't help it.

Oh, and guys cry to but only up to 6 times a year.

I wonder how many times does ............................... cries in a year.

Just Kidding!

KTHXBAI

yours truly,
Sabrina Fadli...

Angry Birds as A World Phenomenon - Say WHAAAAAAAT????

2011-09-15T09:36:00.000-07:00

To start off with, I recommend to Angry Birds' lovers to please don't try and hunt me because of my post. I am not trying to offend anyone or anything here. It is just what I have in mind. I repeat, WHAT I HAVE IN MIND. And I do not mean to make anyone fell disgusted or hate this blog or anything but if you feel disturbed with my post, do make me notice. Tell this to me via commenting on the post. Thank you for the commitment.

Moving on....

So as you can see, Angry Birds have now turned the world upside down. It is a simple game whereby you have different types of round-shaped or egg-shaped birds on a slingshot for you to shoot. And you shoot towards "cute" green annoying pigs who stole the birds eggs (which totally explains why the birds are angry).

So I can see that when I stepped my foot into souvenir shops recently, even in Hatyai, you can never not see anything Angry Bird-ish around there. Some might say, "oh okay, they're awesome and cute and lovable. Why don't you like them?"

the first answer should be, "beauty lies in the eye of the beholder. you can't change the fact that it's not cute to me although you think it's cute"

Second should be, "it doesn't actually suit my taste for real cute things, you know. (Practically the answers are just the same)

Whatever with that, because i am still not ever gonna change my mind about the way i look at Angry Birds.

Another thing is that....

HOW IN THE WORLD CAN THAT SIMPLE, KINDERGARTENERS GAME CAN BE SO ADDICTIVE AND CAN CHANGE THE WAY THE WORLD THINKS ABOUT LITTLE GAMES?!

*letak jampi ke apa?*

I mean, even i am addicted to the game (BUT THEY'RE STILL NOT CUTE).

Kalau orang tu tak addicted, that person might be a super serious gamer sampai game camni pun tak pandang. :)

And lastly, this is specially for Muslims.....

Don't get offended or anything but it actually crossed my mind when i was looking at my friend's key chain and it struck hard.

Bukan ke benda tu, especially the T-Shirt, ada gambar B-A-B-I , tapi kita selamba ja pakai. Tak terfikir ke benda tu, walaupun cartoon tapi still haram untuk kita pakai - pakai? Kalau tak haram sekalipun, tak rasa pelik ke orang islam tapi baju ada gambar binatang tu. OK fine benda tu comel. Tapi ada pulak yang pergi beli soft toys and peluk - peluk benda tu. Bukannya aku kata memang ada orang buat camtu, tapi kalau ada tu, in my opinion, it's better for you to stop rather than to suffer in the end.

I know I'm not that strong in holding onto my iman, but it isn't actually wrong to tell people what you think about something that might not crossed others' minds. I am not alim myself and my Iman is still trembling of weakness, but I want you to open your eyes and your hearts and see what i'm trying to say.

I am most sorry if my post did hurt anyone's feelings but I was really trying to think about things in my own angle and perspective.

KTHXBAI

yours truly,
Sabrina Fadli...

Back. :)

2011-09-15T08:55:00.000-07:00

If you're the person who stalks my blog, you will definitely know why I said ''back''.

NO. i didn't go for a vacay or what-so-ever.

NO. I didn't get myself caught for drug-abusing and was sent to jail.

NO. I wasn't sent for a life-sentence that didn't happen and came back home safely.

NO. I wasn't sent to an asylum because I was confirmed to have a psychological problem.

It is just that I haven't been updating and I hated updating and I hated typing and I hated thinking

and I hated crying about something that went wrong about what I posted and made a huge

problem out of it. BUT I STILL LOVE BLOGGING AND BLOGGER ITSELF :)

Haha OK.It's so obvious that I'm so blind and currently having a short term memory loss

because I WAS back. I had two posts previously that I just posted minutes ago, in the same night.

Geez, that's just dorky.

Okay then. Just came by to say HI!!!

KTHXBAI

yours truly,
Sabrina Fadli...

My Facebook is Missing!!! * surprised -,- *

2011-09-15T08:37:00.000-07:00

Hohoho

The title says it all people!

Yes, I have finally decided to deactivate my account.

Which is why some people searched for my account and couldn't find it.

Aren't I amazing?

All this while, I have become one of those people who couldn't get my ass off Facebook.

I didn't delete it permanently, people.

One day, I shall reactivate myself.

But trust me, that would be a few years onwards.

"And why did you deactivate?"

Hehe, sorry. Personal reasons. And it's not that big that I deactivated.

Because nobody cares!

And I'm not popular. Even if I am, PFFFFT, I stil don't give a damn.

Haish.....

I don't think people would really care about my existence on FB anyway.

Well, maybe except for some people.

not gonna say about anyone in here.

Nanti bergaduh pulak :)

See you in the next post

KTHXBAI

yours truly,
Sabrina Fadli...

Quarreled about KAYA :D

2011-09-15T08:22:00.000-07:00

It might sound silly, but, yeah. It did actually happened. To start off with, I

think most people know what's kaya. And if you don't you're not really a

Malaysian. :) If you're not Malaysian at all (who knows i have foreign visitors,

right?), here's a little thing or two you can take note of.

1. Kaya is a famous bread spread found all over Malaysia :) My favourite is

GARDENIA's .

2. If I'm right, it's mostly from coconut. And it is super thick, and sweet and

awesome. It also has another version which has pandan in it. Which makes it

more pungent and yummy!

And so, the fight starts at the dining table, where my elder brother was going

to finish up the KAYA while dinner, when my cousin was sulking because he

wanted the Kaya as well. My brother was teasing the little cousin of mine that

he was going to finish the KAYA. The little boy was already starting to cry.

Then, my aunt and I came to the rescue!!! (sort of) And then my brother

explained everything about the quarrel and they were OK. And then he teased

the little kiddo again, that he was going to throw the kaya away and made

this dropping sound into the dustbin. And there goes the little kid, bursting

into tears because he didn't get his share of KAYA for the next morning's

breakfast. *sigh* I guess the KAYA was so freaking nice even little kids

couldn't resist fighting for it :D

Well, I guess that's just it for this post.

See you in the next one!

KTHXBAI :)

yours truly,
Sabrina Fadli...

First Day of Fasting (And Raya :D)

2011-07-31T19:01:00.000-07:00

Well, as all Malaysian Muslims should know, today would be the first day of fasting in Malaysia. And I was actually looking forward to this day :D Andandand I am reeeeaaaaallly looking forward to Hari Raya Aidilfitri or in English, Eid Ul Fitr (-____-) because I can (at last) meet up with my other family members like my cousins and aunts and uncles and I am so excited.

Some preparations have been done by Mama and Ayah so that we would not need to walk around on tiring fasting days. I only need another baju kurung (or maybe not?) and a pair of shoes..... OH DAMN IT MY SHOES! Supposed to order it right now. Later lah. Hohoho.

And well, it's 9:47 in the morning and I am not actually wide awake. Still feeling sleepy.... I..... ZZZzzzzzZZz...... BACK! And today, Mama and I are gonna prepare soto for breaking fast! Weeeeeeee~ I <3 SOTO :DDD Talk about food,I have a lot of things I need to do for Eid. Cornflakes cookies (piece of cake :D ), Chocolate coated striped almonds :D, Moist chocolate cake for Mak Chaq, Macaroons for Maksu, Cheesecake for Makchaq and Ilyani (yg ilyani tu tak perlu sebenarnya). Good thing the school closes around four days before Eid, which is a lot of time really :D

So my activity today is mostly laze around and draw and colour and note-writing/typing. Which means I live a boring life actually, except the part where I bake a lot. Oh and the only interesting thing I'm doing today is masak soto and bake Cornflakes cookies. Tu je.

So I guess that's the end of my post. Will do another one later, I hope.

Kthxbai :D

Anwar Hadi and the rest of it.

2011-07-21T07:30:00.000-07:00

Well, as usual I'll start the post with an apology because I didn't update the blog for a long time bla bla bla. It's because I'm not a bloggie addict or whatever people call the kind of people that updates EVERYDAY. No homeworks meh?

So I'm typing/writing this just saja- saja nak cakap pasal Anwar Hadi yg memang SO VERY AWESOME :) And so on relay, which was on the 17th July, Noor Anwar Hadi was in SMK Ibrahim. And I and Sarah Lee Ann got ourselves a few snaps with him. :D So happy. But gambar tu dgn Sarah so I couldn't upload into my post. YET.

I watched his latest vid and there was this part when he started the vid and a group of SMKI students said 'well hello there world' and I was so freakin JEALOUS because I wasn't one of 'em. :( But takpa, got a picture, so, fair enough, I guess.

Oh, and I want to congratulate him (indirectly) on his award, Blogger of the Year, Video of the Year and Must-follow Personality. Pretty rockin. :D Kalau boleh wish kat dia directly lagi bagus :)

But then, I'm dissatisfied about one little thing :| GRRRRRR..... Hoping he'll come on the Fiesta . O_____O

Well, nothing more to say, so, I'll write another post :)

K fine K bye :D

differences :)

2011-06-17T01:56:00.000-07:00

sorry. this post is a little emotional in the introduction. please skip to the second paragraph if you wish to ignore all the emo-ness :)

     sometimes what she does and what she says makes me all confused. Because I can't make a difference between her truths and lies. Beneath all those friendship you promised, you are lying to me and you thought I didn't know. I've had enough of your everything. Thanks for everything anyway.

     And so you think I haven't moved on? Well, kiddo, I did. I don't need someone stone-hearted like you when I have Sarah, Meli and Dhivya.

     And to tell you the truth, I had more good memories with them compared to when I hang out with you. They are so understanding, we had picnics :D (lama dah tak picnic. jom3?) they don't get mad at me for dumb stuffs. Not like YOU~!!!!

     So I have been with these three people for some time already and I love being with 'em. Hey Sar, Mel, Dhivya, thanks for making my life much more easier and brighter. You guys make me smile more than I ever used to.

    Thanks for being a part of my life. Love you guys so much.

P.S. I am not gay. And sorry for the very emo-ish start :D plus, I haven't had much to say

Future dream :D

2011-06-17T01:22:00.000-07:00

OK. I looked through some people's photos. And I was pretty amazed when I look through Lim Aina's. There were really awesome photos of her in Melbourne. Which suddenly triggered this switch in my brain. What about me? Where would I wish to go to further my studies? I did discuss these little things (for now) with my mom. Well, she said Melbourne is cool. but New Zealand is better.

Told her I wanna go for UK but she said it's too far away and that UK might be too cold for me. (she is so concerned about me cannot bear the freezing temperature there). Then I thought of Japan. Hmmm, Japan would be great, except, of course, their temperature. Well, as a matter of fact, every one of the foreign country I chose would not provide a suitable temperature at all times (actually most of the time).

But that is not my major concern for now, but can I make myself comfortable in the surroundings? I'm not used to being away with my family for education. Of course lawatan pernah la. Tapi, I've never felt the feeling you're so far away, miles and miles away, from your parents and it makes me feel a little worried. Can I focus on my studies this way? O.O

Oh and I was thinking about how to get straight As with a + at every one of it :) Study hard AND study smart, Sabrina. You have to. Think about your future, you need a scholarship to help Mama and Ayah.

Allow me to brag more.

I don't even know which course to take. Arts? Well if it's art that I'm taking, it would be fine art or graphic. Other than that, I might wanna take accounts or business-related courses. But my main interest for now is all about culinary arts. :D So deeply in love with culinary.<3

well I guess that is the end of my future dream's bragging. It's what I do best :)

KTHXBAI :D

Current obsessions :D

2011-06-06T00:34:00.000-07:00

recently i have been obsessed with a few people in the entertainment industry. take a look :D

this is Darren Criss. actor in the famous tv series, Glee. He acts as an openly gay student, Blaine Anderson. O.O I was really shocked when I watched the part when he kissed Kurt (of course it's censored in starworld). I was petrified.

This is Lee Taemin. :) The lead dancer in a Korean boy band, SHINee. :D The first time I saw his picture, I said 'she's so cute. who's this?' then I searched for his name and googled him. Again I was petrified. It's a guy? OMG. but then I'm still stuck with this obsession :)

Now, this. this is Lee Jinki. His stage name is Onew :) Lead singer in SHINee. :D I founded him when I was googling for Taemin. ( i do think he looks quite sissy in this picture. :P)

This is parachute. My newest obsession. Well, not really obsessed with 'em actually.... :P

this is Chord Overstreet. He has a weird name, though. He has a pretty nice voice. Watched him on Glee. :)

Choral Speaking :O

2011-05-21T02:46:00.000-07:00

Hey, hey, hey, Sarah Lee Ann!!!

Urm, I ingatkan ada persembahan/pertandingan utk choral speaking this week.

xda kah?

:O

zOMG bila nak practice ah? dah la tgh exam...

ke..... pertandingan tu time cuti.

@$#^%*^@#^$@&

so macam mana?

someone.please.do.enlighten.me

gee... bukannya ada sesapa nak inform pun

stai mcm tak jadi ja?

somebody? explanation is needed right away.

dah la..

nak pi tesco

papai~

KTHXBAI

sometimes.... all i have to do is smile.

2011-05-20T06:54:00.000-07:00

sometimes i think he's just pretending.

sometimes i think i'm just pretending.

sometimes she overreacts.

sometimes she cares.

sometimes she loves me.

sometimes she hurts me.

sometimes she cures me.

sometimes i feel alone.

sometimes i think she's pretty.

sometimes there's so many people around me.

sometimes i just give too much hope on someone.

sometimes i trust to much.

sometimes i wish you'd accept me.

sometimes i am a freak.

sometimes i know she's mad at me but i ignore.

sometimes i care for her.

sometimes i love her.

sometimes i just wish you're my sister.

sometimes i just wish i know you better.

sometimes when things get too tough, nobody wants to lend a hand.

sometimes i wish he smiles for me.

sometimes i want to cut myself.

sometimes i want to cry so much but i push the pain back down.

sometimes i feel so happy but i know something has to go wrong.

sometimes i feel like a ghost,

transparent, ignored, helpless,

nobody knows you were there.

but it's just me.

some people do care.

so, to make sure people aren't worried

about me feeling down

all i have to do is

smile.

Exam oh Exam, Cuti oh Cuti

2011-05-20T06:42:00.000-07:00

GOSH.

Examination is here and I still can't focus.

~~jbhvniudybsivuhnfibvbfd~~

I FEEL SO TIRED.

But, please, oh, please don't tell me to go to bed.

I mean, it's 9:30. Who goes to sleep at 9:30 when the next day is a weekend?

And, heck, I couldn't give focus on my Agama revision.

I have been very random on my BM paper,too.

GEEZ.....

Even my English paper was, like, sooooo random.

I don't even remember what I wrote. =..=

So I think I have to revise my Agama, a little bit science (so boring) and maths. and History

again, GEEEEEEEZZ......

And after the Arts exam..... WAIT!!! I x buat rekaan lagi. SHET!

And after the Arts exam, I will be freeeeeee~!!!

plans

balik rumah and make a list of things to bring

and then pack my bag

and then make sure i have at least 6 AA batteries(rechargeable or not)

and then check my bag to make sure everything is packed

write another list about things to buy @ destination place
or even the airport :D

get myself excited for the trip :DDDDDDD

make sure I have something chew-able or something like sweets for the flight.

P/S I am not going to Singapore. jeez
I wish I'm going there. :| Never mind la...

kthxbai :)

random

2011-05-20T03:17:00.000-07:00

heck? i've added taemin at the side. :O

gosh i miss someone right now.

hey guys, I'm fasting!!! :D

hey dude, cari tempat laen la kalau nak luahkan creativity okay?

susah gila nak tipu orang nowadays.
sebab semua org dah terlebih pandai. huahuahua.

wey, salah ka aku nak suka orang?

tu pun nak marah. geez.

lapar lah....

yo cheesecake, wait for me ah? *wink*

nak mandi la.

kthxbai

Happy Birthday Meli!!!

2011-05-20T02:54:00.000-07:00

Happy 14th Birthday to YOU!

and heck, i don't need sweet dreams much la.

the headache will go away.

have a happy day.

and your cake will be ready after the holidays. i hope? xD

Listening to PARAMORE and Panic! At The Disco

2011-05-06T00:10:00.000-07:00

why do we like to hurt so much? :)
there's nothing wrong with just a taste of what you've paid for.
next time you point a finger i'll point you to the mirror

idk how many times i replayed The Ballad Of Mona Lisa.

I know I just listened to PARAMORE's songs twice for each song.

Well, for today, that is... :/

2011-05-05T22:40:00.000-07:00

Hi, bloggers. I just realized it has been some long time ago that I updated my not-something-nice-to-choose-to-read blog. Really. Ever since I made this blog, I realized that my posts have been really down-graded some people that I have now concluded I don't even really know.

So I'll just try to talk about those light things in life (whatthehell?).

First and foremost, I am here to say that I am absolutely sorry to everyone out there, if i have hurt your feelings directly or indirectly through my unpleasant posts. I am now making a new rule which I will try my best to follow

: don't talk about specific people in this blog

So, if you feel like I have really talked about a specific person, do kindly comment on the posts after THIS one.

Next is that I wish to collect the book entitled The Immortals and if you haven't seen it before, the first title is EVERMORE. I am madly in love with the book, fyi. And I hope someone would be kind enough to buy me the books from its collection. And the series title (The Immortals) are written so smaller that the book title (Evermore) itself, like, a ratio of 4 to 1 or even less. zOMG!

But, alas, my Mother wouldn't buy me the other three books in the collection until the next three months or so, or until I collect my own money. And so I shall. :)

Other than that, I am also patiently waiting for the holidays to come by. I have tonnes of things I wish to do. Plus, I have this need to attend Cik Faliza's wedding. I bet its gonna be awe-some~!! But, wait. when is her wedding again? Amagaash.... and choral speaking competition. O.O

We haven't practiced a bit. *so dead* Courtesy of Sir Gobi being upset of us not getting first place. *sigh* I really do hope we're going to practice soon. I'm already worried about it. Although we won't, like, go to a higher level, I still think we need to save Ibrahim students' and teachers' image right? Not to mention the principal's name. I think I should have a word with Sir Gobi. *sigh*

Oh, and I am not really so very that excited or whatever about this, but my parents are planning to take the family to Medan (I guess) this holidays. Grr.. Wished it was going to be Singapore, but, well she's saving that for end of year or probably next year. Jeez, I hope Indonesia has MPH (LOL) because I'm already excited on getting book #2.

Grrr... K-Pop is killing me right now. LOL. Not because I hate it, but because too many people like it, till it drives me nuts. OMGeeeeee~ >,<

Tell you what, I'm already bragging about stuffs. So, let me finish my chipsmore choc coated and the videos that I have in line in Youtube and I'll brag about some other stuffs. Okeh?

KTHXBAI

h&k, ME. :D

Main.

2011-04-07T21:45:00.000-07:00

LOL. I'm in the main team. should I be happy?
Maybe not.
My friend who wants to be in the main team didn't get the chance.
:'( so sorry!
Don't get mad at me, okay?

Anyway.....

~~kjfgdsklnvlhdalhidlhihlhnkldsnhildahlnlcsjflbhal~~

I, now, am not feeling like I'm on good terms with someone. Don't get me wrong. It's not Ika. I'm totally fine with her. IDK. I'm not even fighting with her. Just not on our usual talking terms.

Plus, I'm really being a hypocrite. Thanks to my fear of losing friends.

But, i don't know. She seems nice. But I don't like people who over-reacts when laughing.

Example : Slaps someone on the back and laugh like a jerk.
: Laughs like you need the whole world to hear you.

Oh God, help me in this situation. :)

Let's make things bright here. :D

I'm currently writing a hell-long-like-indonesian-drama story. LOL Which suddenly sounds like a korean drama 'BOYS OVER FLOWERS'

I didn't write it like a storyline or something. It's more to scripts and action. it's already filling more than 8 pages of my purple hard-cover book.

:)

its gonna take a while to finish. :D

other than that, I really miss my English teacher. :') I hope she enjoys her retirement days and miss me like how I miss her. Imma e-mail her later.

I just got back from tuition. got a horrible headache a while ago. OMG i just don't know what to do. :)

kthxbai <3

short.

2011-04-06T07:23:00.000-07:00

it's 10:23 p.m. nappy time. :) good night. and tomorrow....

hello to the dreadful choral speaking. -,-

kthxbai :)

2011-03-25T02:41:00.000-07:00

i think it has been a reeeeeaaallyyy long time since i haven't updated
because i'm currently so very tired of everything (even facebook).
Tired of haters comments
tired of practises
etc.
But, i'm not tired of him

or him

hehehe.
well, things have been turning out so bad this week, i had to hate myself for them.
especially on my exam results.
BIZARRE!!!
even i can't believe myself
i didn't even achieve my preferred score for science
~~(which is 100%)~~
then, i failed my agama test,
got a B for my History, 78.
WADAFAK???!!!
urm. others are probably fine to me.
damn that agama.
really did made my day.
so, my holidays were boring
and my school days are terrible.
--"
wow.
well, at least i got reliable friends
mel, sar, div, trisya, trishi, wa,
omg i can just list them out but i'm so tired right now
so i'm gonna take a bath
then gonna finish up my homeworks so that i can watch hello baby
and tomorrow is a busy day
with tuition in the morning
shopping for girl guide's malam kebudayaan dress (?)
and ending the day with a very tiring birthday party for hifzan
so, i won't be updating unless very necessary

kthxbai
saranghae~

post yg gedik + merepek....

2011-03-12T20:35:00.000-08:00

dear person,
miss you bad. :( i'm sorry if you dah rasa upset with me. bila nak datang visit? serious lama x jumpa. e-mail pun you forgot nak bagi. i pun lupa nak tanya. :') rindu waktu dulu2 kita selalu merapu at gran's house. kenapa you ego sekarang? kedekut pulak tu. tau la i don't have what you do have. i know you don't miss me. so, takpe la kan kalau i miss you. and, i just can't forget the time you mengamuk kat abang you. haha. kesian dia. lain kali cakap la elok2 dengan dia. he's still your bro. raya pun bukan ada chance sangat nak jumpa. kalau jumpa, you'll layan budak2 tu. pastu tak cakap with me. syahdu gila kot. dah la tak tengok i pun. so, dengan takde benda nak buat, i pun pegi la tolong ayah i pastu you merajuk pulak. tapi enn, everytime we watch tv, mesti mula cakap, pastu budak2 kecik semua merajuk kat kita sebab tak layan diorang. bila la awak nak datang? ooo, pandai dah sombong... takpe tunggu laa, saya culika dik awak like last time pastu main ngan dia so dia tak layan kakak dia. bluwek.

KTHXBAI

facebook... getting boring? yes.

2011-03-12T20:08:00.000-08:00

so, probably Sarah's on her way to KL/Melaka. or maybe not. Well, my facebook days are getting boring. REALLY boring, is what i mean. Why? Because everytime I log in, my notifications will be like 16+ but most of them will be about some random people tagging me on random stuff or probably some stranger inviting me for games. FACT: I am into Facebook for socializing, not games. I AM NOT A GAME FREAK. Oh God... is it me or facebook is getting boring by every minute? and there will be a certain someone inviting me to a dumb event. I'm not calling the person dumb, but the event. darn.

KTHXBAI

2011-03-12T19:52:00.001-08:00

sebenarnya semalam nak buat post pasal kawan2 tapi masalahnya internet ni tiba2 lagi lembab daripada siput khinzir... selalu ok ja.. time2 ni jugak la you nak buat hal.. hishhh dah hilang mood.. pi dengar lagu lagi bagus..

dunno

2011-03-10T23:44:00.000-08:00

hello...
it's been a while since my last post.
i couldn't open my blog, don't know what happened.
so, i've got a lot to say now.
first, i am definitely tired because my school had a cross-country activity yesterday.
and congrats to my friends Fareez and Luqman because they got a number.
and to Amirul Hakim ,next year ada lagi... try your best next year!
second, i am now free from the school's monthly test. pheww. fact: i HATE history. just hoping i could at least get a B for my history test.
third, last Sunday, i had my molar tooth removed, and God, wasn't that good? No more pain just because of that tooth.
well, that's all i can remember for now

KTHXBYE

2011-02-05T22:14:00.000-08:00

LaLaLAAAAA~ biarkan dia nak perasan sorang2. biar dia nak diam sorang2, lagi bagus. sebab kita sendiri xkan rasa sakit hati atau terasa. biar ja dia tu, nak cari pasal ke apa ke, kita positive, kan Sarah? :D lantak kat dia, pi la gaduh dgn diri sendiri, jangan dok drag aku sekali. sekarang baru aman. kalau ikutkan aku nak buat jugak, baru puas hati aku. tapi aku ni open-minded, orang lain pun nak tau gak so, biarkan jaa... bukan macam hang. BLUWEKK :P

macam email pulak.

2011-02-05T00:47:00.000-08:00

hey sar. read your blog. over. haha. you syok sbb guna iPad? LOL. (if you're like, "oh, hate me la now" guess what, i don't) miss you. i've been wondering about how it feels like to go round for CNY. oh, I wanted to ask, did you get a camera already or did you just randomly posted i love D3100 or something? if you got it, I'll be like, totally amazed. :O I haven't got mine, which sucks pretty bad, but i've got high chances on getting one. All I have to do is wait. --"

well.... it's because i'm bored, that's why. so, err, congrats on going to get your favourite camera.

yours truly,

SABRINA FADLI <3

2011-02-01T04:31:00.000-08:00

I really have a strong feeling that 'she' likes 'him'. she is .... urm... lets call her mulberry and he is.... flageolet. FYI obviously mulberry is a berry. duh. but flageolet is a type of bean that is widely used in french cookings. It's actually a premature kidney bean. back to the story. mulberry likes flageolet. I like flageolet. I'm just making a conclusion though. She is trying to get attention from him.... Damn. I mean. I'm trying to forget. Plus, he is fading in my mind anyway. He doesn't deserve a place in here. In my mind. But when thsi happens, it really triggers a pain gear in my heart. Jealous? Mad? Chill Sab. Just think. If he likes Mulberry, that's good for you. At least that could help you forget. So, just let it pass. Find someone right. He isn't. Is he? Oh God. This reeks. Get outta my life Flageolet!

LATE

2011-01-31T07:04:00.000-08:00

well, i know this post is sort of late.

firstly, why the hell would some dumb cows vandalize our class? We didn't do anything to their class - whoever 'they' are- and the main suspect is 2A6. They must have hold a grudge against our class. As proof, they stated that we copied their class design. my first impression - what the hell. Okay, even if we copied your class design, which we don't, why the vandalizing? You guys nak cari pasal buat apa? sikit2 sudahlaa... Don't over-do things. Not good for your health. Seriously. Plus, Cik Roslina backed them up. another what the hell. I mean, she is our class teacher, so, why do you have to defend THEM? WE are the victim, SHE backed up villains. Not a wise idea. GAH! If I get to know who did all this, I will kick their ass, literally. Second, tell Ika to ask them to pay for what they did. --" -to be continued?-

-no title yet-

2011-01-20T01:26:00.000-08:00

You know how it feels to fall in love, don't you. Hmm.. I've fallen in love, too. It's pretty amazing about what someone would do to get attention from the specific favourite. haha, I know exactly how it feels like. It was last year and it was almost spring. Yet, it's still snowing. I live in Paris and it's freezing cold. My mansion's fountain is frozen, the bushes covered with snow and I'm at the garden in my shorts and short-sleeved tee. I was really hoping that I would get a chance to see the flowers bloom right in front of my two eyes. It's a dream I have never achieved since I was six. I know it's ridiculous but I love flowers. Now that I'm 15, it still hasn't worked out for me. It's freezing awesome and my teeth are chattering. I might get hypothermia. The very moment I thought about hypothermia, my butler, Jose, came with a turtleneck sweater, a cardigan and a very thick fur coat. He made wear them and gave me a pair of socks and boots to match with my long scarf. 'when are you going to stop this madness, my lady? Even with a thick coat, you can't stay out here forever. Night will fall soon and I need you inside at the fireplace. You'd catch a cold this way.' He is always concerned. That's why I love him so much. Even for a 43-year old, he is still handsome and he always warms my heart with his soft sentences and caring thoughts. 'Until my dream comes true, or until I catch hypothermia like last year.' We laughed and he gave me a glass of hot chocolate. His very best hot chocolate. URHM! Delicious. I can drink it every hour and get fat. Haha. but he'll make sure that doesn't happen. I love you Jose! It started to snow but I'm still sitting on the bench, waiting for a tulip to bloom. And here comes Cedric, my younger butler. I know he'll drag me inside. ' Lady Catrina, if you keep acting like this every year, I might have to lock your bedroom door and windows everytime spring comes! Will you please make your way inside and warm yourself at the fireplace before I drag you, again, and make you suffer the consequences?' I thought so. hmmh. 'okay, fine. You win. But you have to make some more hot chocolate. And make sure it's better than Jose's. Deal? .................. Oh come on, I was just kidding. I'll go inside but tell Jose I want more hot chocolate. Please and thank you.' I walk myself inside and heard Cedric gave a loud sigh of relief. I love him. In fact I love everyone in this mansion. They all come from Britain, my dear hometown. Jose is a french but grows up in Britain. Lovely man. Unfortunately, his wife, Maria, who used to be my babysitter, died because of dengue fever. He seems so sad back then but he turned out smiling today, treating me like a 5 year old. I miss Maria. Her rosy cheeks and her pink lips made me miss her more. As I was warming myself upon the fire place, Jose brought a huge mug of thick, creamy hot chocolate, and a big thermos full of it, another huge mug with hot chocolate on a tray and a gigantic bowl of chewy marshmallows. I was extremely thrilled. We both sat down on the carpet and drank the hot chocolate and toasted the marshmallows. He taught me that marshmallows are more scrumptious if dipped with hot chocolate. After that, Amanda helped me to my room and prepared a hot bath for me. After changing, I saw someone outside the mansion gates. He is a tall man, probably 6 feet. Handsome. In his 20's. Maybe a new butler. 'My lady, a new butler has come to serve you, specially from Britain. Lord Ciel sent him here.' hmmh thought so. He got in and started working. The next day, I ran to the garden at six in the morning and I was really upset. The tulips have started to bloom. The morning glory is up. Red and white roses are blooming everywhere. 'My Lady, it's early in the morning. You should stay in bed. Plus, coming outside at this temperature can make you catch a cold' Jose was behind me. '*sigh* I just detected the scent of spring. I have to wait another year again.' 'Lets get you up. Today, you can have a walk at the town square.'

2011-01-19T23:15:00.000-08:00

I might appear happy, but I was never that way.
I might appear laughing, but my heart is swollen in pain.
I might be smiling but inside of me, I am dying.
I might crack jokes and laugh along, but in my heart I'm never calm.
I could make you laugh, but not my dreams.
I try to think that you only joke, about how much you love that girl
But my heart denies and my brain tells me
That you'll never come back to me.
But here you are, right in my arms.
Regretting yourself for leaving me.
But how can I accept you again, when I have fallen in love with him?
So I tell you, I'm sorry dear, but love is never nice.
you have to get hurt sometimes, to understand the meaning of it.
Now find yourself a better girl, and love like you've never loved.
Never leave her ever again, for you can't be with her once she breaks.
And hearts can't be stuck together again.

good things and bad things about being sick

2011-01-19T23:00:00.000-08:00

it's pretty bad that i'm sick at the wrong time. always am.

GOOD THINGS

1. you don't have to struggle in listening to nags. :D
2. you can have a whole day away from enemies.
3. away we go from school drama
4. a whole day of peace and quiet. a day for yourself
5. you can finish your homework in calm.
6. you can sleep. :3
7. wake up late is a must. *yessss*

BAD THINGS

1. you have to ring your friends for homework
2. sometimes, there's a change in the class schedule
3. something cool happened at school and you're not there to see it live in action.
4. they (class mates) did something fun and you're not there to join them.
5. cool things the talked about, and you're not there to add the spice.
6. you'd get it if you didn't ask for homeworks from your buddies.
7. friends aren't kind enough to tell today's homework.
8. you'd get caught at home with your neighbors and they'd start to be so kepochi
9. you'd be bored to death because no one's online on FACEBOOK. :D
10. you'll miss your friends and you'd be wondering whether they're talking bad about you or not.

there's a lot more, but my brain seems to be broken down and i'm not in a happy mood. :|

KYUHYUN :)

2011-01-19T21:14:00.000-08:00

i am not a K-POP fan. well, actually i am. a little. but i'm not that crazy or anything about it.

kyuhyun is a SUJU member. SUJU is Super Junior by short, if you don't know anything about K-pop, that should help. :D

ngeee.. mcm xda keje dah dok post pasal orang. so.... thats all? :D

2011-01-19T20:54:00.001-08:00

nebulizer treatment sucks.... --" but i really need it.. I NEED IT A LOT! that's why I still go for it.

Justin Bieber

2011-01-19T20:38:00.000-08:00

Today I' gonna talk about Justin Bieber. You might be asking why would i wanna make a post about Justin Bieber. My first statement is, I AM NOT A JB FAN. Please make that very clear. I don't hate him. I don't like him either. I will listen to his songs only when i feel bored. Like, right now.

First of all, I just have to tell you JB fans out there, even if he is handsome to you, not much to me, you don't have to worship him just as if he is God or something. So what if he's cute? yes, he got the looks, the voice and the moves. But so what? Other singers are just the same. Doesn't make much difference in any way. Plus, saying he is an idol is pretty wrong. IDOL means that you will worship him until forever. IDOL is equivalent to GOD. JB is not God. so stop worshiping him and thank you.

Second, don't hate him. He means no harm to anyone. Don't go hurting him at some concert, I mean, even if you're not satisfied because he has good looks, good voice and great moves, he doesn't even know you and you threw something at him? oh, please. Be a matured person and ignore him even if his voice annoys you.

JB fans who reads this, don't get me wrong. I'm just saying what lies beneath. I just wanna tell that the screams of worship and hate is really raping my mind. So, please don't go screaming around. AND PLEASE, if you attend his concert or something, don't try to act viciously when lining up. Some people might end up in the hospital, or even worse, get killed at the scene. You'll even jam the news because of the incident.

THANKS!

hell yeah! byeee

2011-01-15T00:40:00.000-08:00

Let me tell you what happened this morning. First of all, my parents aren't at home. They have this field trip especially for their work place. So, they're in Hatyai for now. Coming home tomorrow evening / night. Ok. I was still sleeping when my mom busts into my room and switched off my air-cond. She switched my room lights on and like, pulled my thick blanket from my face and was like, Happy Birthday!!! I opened my eyes for like, a second, I guess. I pulled the blanket back and she was patting my face and went out. Then I slept. 10 minutes later.... my dad busts in to my room. and I automatically got up without my eyes opened. Salam my dad, he kissed my cheeks and wished me a happy birthday and don't hurt myself when they're gone. He paused at my door and was like, nak celebate kat mana ah?... I quickly said 'LeBoss in a whisper. As soon as he closed my room door, I bumped my head on my pillow, cover my face with blanket and sleep. Then I heard my mom calling for my bro and I just continued sleeping. When I woke up, it was already 8:30. Took a bath then went downstairs. I cooked my own breakfast. Told my big bro what day is today. :D then he wished me. And my lil bro wished me at 3.00 p.m. --" that's all. :DDDD

k, thanks. Bye~

Sarah Lee Ann,thanks for making my day. :DDD

2011-01-14T23:00:00.000-08:00

Dear Sarah Lee Ann,
thanks for the birthday wish, thanks for that pic in your blog. I'm sorry that I'm so lame because I don't know how to take the screen picture.. you didn't teach me too. Haha. well, the point is, it really made day. :DD chocolate sponge cake, rite? haha.. i'm looking forward to your birthday!!!

yours truly,

SABRINA

yes yes yes and a bla bla bla. bye!

tukang kacau, tak puas hati apa dengan aku tak tau laa.. bullshit

2011-01-02T01:04:00.000-08:00

harap la orang yang aku maksudkan ni faham. sebab orang yg memang gila takder keje ni la aku kena remove chatbox aku. apa masalah kau? tak puas hati sangat dengan aku. penakut nombor satu. kalau tak suka aku, menyampah dengan aku, tak puas hati dengan aku, bagitau je la. aku sendiri tak kenal kau. pastu, nak cari pasal, tapi guna taktik penakut. baik tak payah kau kacau aku. show yourself, dumbass. you're such bullshit. kalau aku kenal kau pun, kau takder makna dalam hidup aku. tau la aku ni mainkan role peting, kan, sebab aku ni the bad guy. and aku ni memang role paling penting, even more than the hero. seriously, get your ass off my blog. memang bermasalah la orang macam kau ni. freaks. this is just bullshit, a waste of time, stupid.

damn damn damn

2010-12-22T00:28:00.000-08:00

GAAAH!!! My holidays are absolute bore. Tak jadi pi KL (again) plak tu... damn damn damn... but maybe this week best kot, sebab cousin ayah nak datang? arghh... ada pegi trip to perlis, tapi tak best mana pun. ada pegi jalan2 sampai penat kat Sunway Carnival Mall. Tak celebrate besar2 birthday abang. *paling tak best* damn damn damn... tak tau la mama nak bawak gi mana birthday ayah nanti... hope pegi celebrate kat mana2... and then boleh buat cake kat ayah. WEEEE~ lalala cheesecake for daddy, what cake for big bro?, spongecake for Sarah. :) cookies for me! kat kawan lain, tak tau laa... damn damn damn, i dont have enough ingredients to make dad's cake... --"..... hmmm, btw, does anybody knows where to find sour cream? if i'm desperate, i'd use a yoghurt... damn damn damn...

SIDEKICK!!! :D

2010-12-17T01:23:00.000-08:00

i see you faking yourself, but you are so close to everyone. therefore, i am upset. why? because you try your best to fit in, in whatever situation, and you succeeded. And I tried my best to be who i am, but guess it doesn't relly work out for me. maybe faking is such a good idea?

2010-12-10T17:35:00.001-08:00

2010-12-10T06:25:00.000-08:00

I'm writing a story but it keeps stopping. That's because I have History notes to do, plus a Japanese writing scrapbook. So, I just have to leave my dear story for a while. -___- " I'll lose my idea. sigh nevermind then. I hate you History notes! :)

SIDEKICK!!! :)

Play My Music~

2010-12-10T06:17:00.000-08:00

2010-12-07T06:02:00.000-08:00

My heroes!!!
Heroes recipe

i. 3 cups of Jonas Brothers
ii. 500 grams of PARAMORE
iii. 1 cup of David Archuleta
iv. 2 cups of My Chemical Romance
v. 1 1/2 cup of Taylor Swift
vi. 5 pieces of Never Shout Never
vii. 4 liters of Plain White T's
viii. 9 pieces of Super Junior
ix. tenenenenen.... 300 grams of Green Day
x. 100 grams of Avril Lavigne
xi. 1 teaspoon of Lenka
xii. 1 kg of Sean Kingston

and add a pinch of Justin Bieber and give it a good mix and you'll get a wonderful batter.

yes.
i don't know what am i saying. maybe, just maybe, i'm a little crazy? :)
don't trust my recipe.
I just don't know what to do.

SIDEKICK!!! :)

2010-12-07T01:29:00.001-08:00

hahaha... shiva seelan tipu kuat... todia, bf teruih...

2011 determinations

2010-12-07T01:22:00.000-08:00

lerr... nak marah, marah je laaa... jangan pi kata kat orang.... aku pun dok try nak buat camtuh gakk, tpi ang jgn marah laa... satgi aku kutuk akt blakang, ang marah... aku straight-forward tahun depan... tu azam aku la kot.

-..-

ignore that one at the top. was just saying. :)

next year's determinations!!!

1. being honest... (?)

2. i will not delay my homeworks. anti-procrastinations! :)

3. save as much money as I possibly can. :)

4. stop being so unfriendly.

5. no go-backs.

6. less FACEBOOK. :(

7. less hanging-around-computer time. :((

8. less T.V. O.O

9. be more responsible.

10. stop being so mean and hurting others

11. straight-forward. @_@

12. focus in class.

13. please, just PLEASE this once, get an A for History!

14. appreciate whatever i have. :)

15. stop being so STUPID! 0_0
16. do not put high hopes on anything to avoid heartbreaking. :)
17. more exercise!!! -..-
18. more music, please! :D
19. more determination when doing works.
20. stay calm and positive on whatever situation.

i think that's all for now....

Next year's determinations, they're so hard....

it's like, a full character change...

-___-"

^0^ < GANBATTE!!!)

SIDEKICK!!! :)

random...

2010-12-06T05:08:00.000-08:00

Damn, I miss school a lot! I want to see my friends again... Miss you guys so much!!! MUAH! LOL.. But seriously, wish I can see them right now. I had the worst nightmare ever. T_T I want to go to Shuhada's bro's wedding, but, apparently, I haven't asked my parents. I'll give it a try tomorrow. Ganbatte!

-____- < ZzZzZzZzZ)

Nikon D3100!!! :D

2010-12-02T17:59:00.000-08:00

DADDY, I WANT THIS ONE. I KNOW IT'S NEW. BUT IT'S AWESOME. I WANT THIS ONE?

2010-11-28T20:47:00.001-08:00

thanks a freakin' lot for not posting for some time. it makes me feel so good that you're not around. seriously. i did it because i have to.

hell yeah. rite. later

i just love these pictures

2010-11-25T23:58:00.000-08:00

I like this :D

so secretive ;)

can't get enough of this

pity :D

:DDD

nice

don't get in trouble with it

adorable!!!!

yeah, you better

fighting!

so funny, the expression

--" pokemans.... we are being used!

O_O

nyehehehe

cuuuutee

awhh :3

gosshhh

go on then.

that's fine. :DD

bad cat

XDDD i love this

awwwwhh!!!! ^_^

this is the sweetest one!!!! XDDD

2010-11-25T23:53:00.001-08:00

it's like he doesn't hear a word i say, his mind is somewhere far away. and i don't know how to get there.

2010-11-25T23:51:00.001-08:00

you made me thrown so far away from him, he actually don't know me. you made me part with him, he goes with you. and on your way making him hate you, you both fell in love with each other. you are so full of yourself. selfish. all you think is about making people's lives so full of misery. you take things from people. you do things that others would regret but not you. you're the type of person who lost your mind all you think is about your own fame and life. you step on people to achieve that. don't you ever regret your actions? you're like a thug. when you don't get what you want, you take it from people. in fact, innocent people. what are you?

2010-11-24T00:13:00.001-08:00

Ti Bi
Ti Do
Ti Lun

that's what you want.

yep,yeah, rite, duh.

2010-11-23T02:25:00.001-08:00

yeah, I'm not good enough, am I?

yep, yeah, rite, duh.

2010-11-23T02:24:00.001-08:00

kenapa?

yep, yeah, rite, duh.

2010-11-21T00:08:00.000-08:00

wey. dok pulun apa tak tau la enn.

Hmmmm....

2010-11-19T17:32:00.000-08:00

hmmmm... baru balik KL, kampung ayah. Hmmmm.... demam asyik on and off jaaa. Hmmm.... ada ulser yang menyakitkan kat gusi. Hmmm.... penat bergaduh. Hmmm.... cousins nak mai besok or hari ni. Hmmm... kerja babysitting akan berjalan besok. Hmmmm.... grandma tersayang nak pegi Bangkok 3 minggu lagi. Hmmm.... sedih sikit jaaa. Hmmm.... ayah tengah browsing SLR cameras. Hmmm.... tak sabar nak dapat! Hmmmm... rindu class 1A7 of 2010. Hmmm... tak tau nak mintak apa untuk birthday present kalau ayah tak jadi beli kamera tuu. Hmmm... tengah lapar sebab tak cukup makan roti canai. Hmmmm... mengantuk and pening kepala. Hmmm... benci betul kalau demam. Hmmm... jangan dok perasan sangat lerr, wahai teman. Hmmm... apa kejadah aku buat camni? Hmmm... sebab aku tengah bosan tahap dewa arimasen syurga di langit ketujuh. Hmmm... tak kisah. Hmmm... bye~!!!

2010-11-18T19:56:00.001-08:00

babi? bila masa?

Parents Went Out To Penang.... Stuck at home

2010-11-13T01:45:00.000-08:00

Well, today my parents are out to Penang for the RHB Bank's annual dinner. They went as early as 9 a.m. because they had to practise their performances. And I'm stuck at home so I decided to complete my Arts homework which I have to pass up tomorrow. I should've saved the 'baking cookies' activity for today. :| Now I'm so bored.My older brother went out for a 'kompang' class. He decided to cycle there I guess, maybe he followed my neighbour, Uncle Mad. That leaves me, my younger brother, my grandma and my maid at home which is such a boring combination. And because I don't know what to do, I listened to Never Shout Never. My parents won't be back till midnight! And I don't even know what time Syafiq (Big Bro) will come back. Stuck in this house!!!

But then again, tomorrow night would be a fine night. I and Syafiq are going for the Chess Club dinner at Village Mall and I'll be meeting Sarah and Melissa (RAWR). So I don't mind getting stuck at home for now. Weeeee~

On The Bright Side, my favourite song for now... :DD

2010-11-12T22:28:00.000-08:00

I met a man of 2 feet tall,
This man is quite ambitious,
in a world that is so vicious to us all.
I said Hi,
As he replied,
Listen to these words that I have lived by my whole life.

You're only as tall, as your heart will let you be,
And you're only as small, as the world will make you seem,
And when the going gets rough and you feel like you may fall,
Just look on the bright side, you're roughly 6 feet tall.

I met a man of 12 feet tall,
He towers like like a giant,
In a world that is defiant
to his height.
I said Hi,
as he replied,
Listen to these words that I have dreaded my whole life.

You're only as tall as your heart will let you be
and you're only as small as the world will make you seem
and when the gets rough and you feel like you may fall,
just look on the bright side, you're roughly 6 feet tall.

I am a man of 6 feet tall,
Just looking for some answers,
in a world that answers none of them at all.
I'll say Hi,
but not reply
to the letters that you write because I found some peace of mind.

Cause I'm only as tall as my heart will let me be,
and I'm only as small as the world will make me seem,
and when the going gets rough and I feel like I may fall,
I'll look on the bright side, I'm roughly 6 feet tall.

-Live this life to the fullest-

from Never Shout Never

I loooooove it~

nak tulis cerita tapi malas nak type... :D

2010-11-11T22:58:00.001-08:00

2010-11-11T22:20:00.000-08:00

hmmmm
okok
aku bagi kau masa
okok
aku nak berubah
sebab aku dah memang camni...
aku type yang menyalahkan dunia sebab aku ni bermasalah
otak aku sentiasa celaru.
aku jenis dengar cakap orang
and kadang2 walaupun aku nak bantah,
aku tak berani
percayalah.
azam aku tahun depan tak nak lukis waktu dlm kelas
nak duduk row depan sekali
nak buat pulun so that x fail
and selalu dapat A
*Sarah, jangan laa marah sebab i jadi pulun tahun depan*
yeah... pulun....
kadang-kadang, saya benciiiii dengan diri saya
dan kadang2 macam nak suicide
tapi x jadi laaa

yaya, saya emo, dan saya bangga saya emo kadang2

2010-11-11T21:57:00.001-08:00

2010-11-11T01:40:00.000-08:00

Fine. kau x nak forgive aku. aku pun x leh nak buat apa - apa kan? AKU yg kena hormat kau and and keputusan kau. aku x berhak membantah. sebab aku yg salah. aku yg buat kau marah while kau x buat aku marah pun. pastu bila aku x apologize, aku kena pulau. bila aku apologize kau x terima. semua salah aku. aku yg trigger world war ni. aku x mau tau apa-apa. Since aku dah mintak maaf, aku dah try berbaik ngan kau, kau tamau, so, yg aku tau,kalau lebih 3 bulan, Allah marah. so, suka hati kau la, ye? semua kena ikut kata kau. --'

NIGHTMARE - continued

2010-11-10T02:23:00.000-08:00

He grabbed my hand, pulled me softly to the sunlight. It was so embarrassing! I know I blushed so hard, because he actually laughed at me. He made me danced. I felt like the whole world was watching us dancing. Then, as I was so embarrassed, I pushed him away and said, ' What's the matter with you? I hardly even know you and now we're dancing.' He looked so miserable. He sat on the bench and looked so.... tensed. I went and sat beside him. ' Eric. What's the matter? You looked so tensed. If you feel guilty for just now, then forget it. It's not like I'm mad at you or something. It's just that I'm embarrassed.' He looked at me. Then he actually hugged me, so tight I couldn't free myself. 'I'm so sorry Emma. I just want to let go of my problems', he said, while letting me go from his arms. ' It's this girl. Maybe you do know her. Her name's Janessa.', and before he could continue his story, I stared at him so hard, I think I might have looked through him. ' Emma?' ' yeah? do continue' I said.

He told me how Janessa told him that she loved Eric so much and that she's been watching him from a distance from long ago. She even told Eric that I don't have a slight feeling of love to him and I don't even feel like being friends with him. In fact she said that it's best if he stays away from me if he does not want to get hurt. 'I rejected her at first. But after that I felt so bad about rejecting. People say I have a soft spot for girls. It's not true but I don't like seeing her cry. But at the same time, I just don't care if what she said was true because I like you and I don't care whatever people say.' I felt so happy when he said it. But he had the miserable look on his face again. ' But I was worried if I am the reason if she does horrible things to you. So...' Eric paused. He didn't continue. 'Eric, please don't tell me you accepted her.' He looked at me with eyes of guilt. ' I'm sorry, Emma. Somehow when I thought about it, I just don't want to feel rejected. I don't want her to feel the same way too. You even show expressions that looks like you're not even interested in befriending me.' I could feel my tears trickling from my light gray eyes falling down my cheeks. It was like rain.

' Emma!!! Wait! Come back!!! PLEASE!!!', Eric shouted for me as I ran back home. I felt so... betrayed. So hurt. So denied. It's because I've never tried falling in love before. I'm just so scared that I'll lose the ones I love most. I slowed down my steps. I reached home with my eyes, red and still full of tears. My first crush, gone, taken by my own best friend. My steps felt heavier and heavier as I entered my own home. Imagine that! I'm not even willing to walk home, but I came back to sense and walked home as it was beginning to look like it's going to rain. I stood at the mansion's doorstep, unwillingly starting my steps inside. I looked around and realized that Janessa is not around. Hmmh. Why am I thinking about her anyway? That hypocrite back-stabber. Just when I closed the door, my butler came rushing to me, 'Miss Emma, are you alright? You look so tired. Let me assist you upstairs, shall we?' I felt cheered up when Robert, my personal butler, was around. He knows my problems when I have one. He knows how my day was, let's just say, he knows everything about me. He's been working with me since the past 10 years, starting from when I was at the age of 7. His father worked with my father, you see. He assists me wherever I go and he's like my second best friend. ' Okay' , is what I could respond to him. I was carried upstairs as I couldn't climb up the stairs any longer, so tired and stressed. Robert put me on the bed and prepared a warm bubble bath for me. He went out of my room and I walked to the bathroom and bathed. I was thinking so much until I didn't even realized 30 minute passed by. KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK, three knocks from Robert. ' Miss Emma, I have prepared your soup. Do you want me to take it in now?' 'Not yet.', I answered him. After a quick rinse, I wore my pyjamas and called Robert up. He brought me a glass of water and a big bowl of warm, creamy mushroom soup. I ate the soup slowly, without my eating mood. I told Robert everything that happened. As soon as I finished, I heard the entrance door opened. Robert said it was Janessa. She was worried about me wandering around outside when it started to get cloudy and went out searching for me. I thought that she was being so hypocrite.

'Emma!! Where are you? Eric said you're back! Are you upstairs? I'm going inside your room, okay?' She stepped inside my room. She actually smiled as if she was so relieved that I'm back. 'What're you doing here?' I asked Janessa, I sounded so mad. ' Well, I am living here with you. Why do you ask me such a question? Are you okay, Em?' How could she ask me such a question? How can she not know that I knew everything? 'You confessed to Eric, didn't you, Jan?' She gave me this shocked expression as if it's a big secret. I was so mad at her, I actually stood on my feet although I was so tired. 'How could you do this to me, Janessa?! You didn't just confessed to him, you even said that I have not a single feeling of love to him, and I don't even want to be his friend?! You stabbed me from the back! You take me as an advantage of getting close to him! How dare you!' And I slapped her in anger. I couldn't control my anger at all. It's like the first time I have ever let my anger control myself. Janessa ran into her room while Robert calmed me down. He lullabied me and made me fell asleep. I was so tired to even stop myself from getting lulled to sleep.

The next thing I remembered was that I woke up next morning and my feet were aching. Maybe because I walked to much. I quickly took a bath and intended to run downstairs to have breakfast. Before I could even step on the flight of stairs, I heard Robert's voice. He was talking to Janessa in her room. I could even hear Janessa sobbing in there. I was so inquisitive I opened the bedroom door and saw Robert talking to Janessa who was crying on her bed. I could hear Robert saying that he wants the best for me and asks Janessa to leave the mansion soon. He wants me to live in the mansion in peace. Janessa pleaded to stay for another week as she wanted to spend time with Eric. Robert told her that I couldn't bear meeting her after the incident and asked Janessa to leave my mansion soon, and asked when she would leave, so that he could call the cab for her. Janessa said she'd leave two days after today. I closed the door after that and pretended like I just came out of my room. Janessa was still sobbing when she came out of her room. She looked at me just as if she wanted to beg to me for a stay. But of course she didn't. She just stared at me so I decided to move downstairs. No sooner than five steps have I taken, Janessa pushed me and I fell down the stairs. I was lucky that I could grab hold of the edge of the staircase, or I could've ended up in the hospital. My left arm was in horrible pain. 'Robert!! Help me!' , as I tried standing up. My legs were O.K. ' Janessa, how could you do this? Why would you do this? You want me dead, don't you? Hey, if you want Eric, go ahead and take him! I've thought about it and there's still so many great guys that I could find!' Janessa looked so troubled when Robert came. 'Miss Emma, what happened?' I froze. I didn't know what to tell him as I don't want Janessa to be in a bigger situation. ' I.... I fell down the stairs. My arm hurts, so could you please call the doctor?' 'O.K.', said Robert, as he stared at Janessa who couldn't say a word after that. She fell to pieces and cried. Janessa walked closer to me and hugged me, ' I'm sorry I did that to you. I.... The only thing that I was thinking about was myself. I'm so selfish. I'm so sorry, Emma....' She sounded so sorry, so I said, ' It's okay. I was selfish too, last night. Don't leave. Just stay till summer ends, okay? Now let go of me, my arm is burning.' She assisted me downstairs and rested me on the couch.

Before the doctor arrived, it started to rain heavily. Suddenly, Janessa came to me and she said so many things that sh regretted. ' I'm sorry I pushed you, I'm sorry I fell in love with Eric, I'm so sorry I'm being selfish, I'm sorry I haven't been a good friend to you, I'm so sorry about everything, Emma. Please forgive me. Please!' ' You're joking aren't you? I've never wanted to have revenge on you nor anyone. And, yeah, I forgave you for everything. Now don't be so ridiculous. Get up on your feet. I wanna feel the rain again. It's been some time.' She assisted me outside and I was so happy feeling raindrops falling on my palm, not knowing what would happen next. Suddenly, Janessa ran outside into the rain and towards the gate. I chased her, worried if she get hit by lightning. But that was when my worst nightmare happened. Janessa ran to the middle of the road and she shouted 'Emma!!! I want you to be happy from now on!!! Please make Eric the happiest man alive for me!! And I'm sorry for this, Emma!!!' Just after she finished saying things, I saw a huge truck coming near her. ' Goodbye, Emma Emily!!!'

I snapped out from my daydream. It's been seven years and I still can't forget her. Now I'm living happily with dear Eric and I am now 24 years and so is Eric. Robert married a maid of my friend and they both are currently working at my place. Robert's 30 while his wife, Alex LeAnne is 28 and they have a charming son, Edward. We are living happily in the mansion at Florina Beach. I look forward to my future. And Janessa, Eric is now the happiest man alive. And I'll never forget you, my sweet dream and also my unforgettable nightmare.

NIGHTMARE

2010-11-08T05:55:00.000-08:00

Gorgeous. The only thing I could say about him. Well, you see, I'm the sort of girl that don't really get along with guys. People said I'm pretty. Not that I believe it anyway. The first time I met him was on summer, seven years ago. He was playing a guitar, singing a song too. I watched him from afar, spellbound, amazed. He attracted so many people. Let's just say, he attracted so many girls. He was great. The only thing that makes me wonder is just that he didn't actually talk to them, the girls. He just smiled all the way. I felt thirsty and went to buy a smoothie nearby.

Although I received my order, I stayed at the bar to enjoy the summer breeze. Just when I started to enjoy the sunlight, the guy came to sit beside me and blocked the sunlight. 'Hey, do you mind?' yes, i am a spoilt brat. 'oh, sorry. I'm blocking your view, I believe?' 'yeah. totally blocked.' 'sorry bout that.' that's just so polite, I said in my heart. 'well, it's nothing serious. Just a small matter.' He ordered a cappucino smoothie. 'Want some?' he asked me, all of the sudden. ' no thanks. I've got mine. Chocolate. My favourite flavour.' ' I see. Interesting. hahaha'. i was thinking, just maybe this guy has a broken fuse in his brain?

'What?' he asked, so naive. i said 'nothing. Just, weird.' 'sorry.' Then, he just went back to the circle of girls and played another song. I just could stare at him from a distance. I almost had a heart attack when he suddenly looked at me and smiled. Oh my gosh. The other girls gave a cold, icy stare which sent myself back home. On the way back, I received a phone call from Janessa, my best friend. ' Miss Emma Emily Johnson, where are you?' 'Jan, stop calling me like that. I am at Florina Beach by the way.' I responded. Then Janessa shrieked out her lungs, as loud as she could ' AAAAA!!! You're here? where are you?' 'The drinks bar, dear.' ' I'll be right there! 2 minutes, my lady!' I spun around and my heart could've stopped beating. HE was eavesdropping on me. 'so your name is Emma Emily?' 'yeah. So?' I replied. 'Well, I was just curious. I want to know your name. That's why I came by. And I have gotten your name. Thanks!' Wow. what a jerk! 'Hey! At least you could just tell me your name too.' 'at last, you actually asked! My name is Eric James Benjamin. Guitarist. Singer. Believe in love at first sight.' I wanted to leap for joy and say thanks. But I didn't. I was so ego! I just waved, signaling that I'm not so interested in him.

Janessa came seconds after that. I was so shocked my heart could've stop beating. 'BOO! Hahahaha. How can I not see you in such a short distance? SO you're the pretty girl at the tiki bar that melted Eric James' heart.' ' Jan, you were there? In the circle of the girls? Oh please!' 'Emma, i think he has fallen in love at his first sight you know. It's not too late. He's single, i guess.' What do you mean, you guess? you have to be sure! Be patient, Emma, patient. Come to the beach everyday and see if he keeps on coming to you. 'well? Are you going to try him or not?' 'Not today. I'm exhausted. I'm sure he is, too. come on, lets go back home.' I invited Janessa to my mansion. We played pillow fight and two pillows are severely damaged.

krriiiiiing!!!! As my alarm clock rings, I quickly get up and bathed. Got down as fast as I could and realized something was wrong. I can't find Janessa. I ran upstairs to her room and founded an empty bed with a note saying, 'hey honey, I'll be at the beach if you need me. I have something to do here. Love Janessa'. hmmh. not like the Janessa I know, going to the beach at 9. i have a quick breakfast and rushed to the beach, hoping to see the Eric dude. Well there he was. My lucky day, I believe. He's all alone. Playing the guitar, singing all by himself. I quickly ordered a Chocolate smoothie and a Cappucino smoothie an walked to him.

'here, it's cappucino.' i was blushing. Really. ' thanks. That's a stroke of luck, you are. I dropped my money on the way here. Guess someone's got it already huh?' 'yeah. if you need money, just tell me. I can give you some.' He gave me this look of curiosity. ' What? what's wrong, Eric?' ' Oh My Gosh. Did you just said my name?' 'well yeah, duh. you're talking like as if you don't have a name.' the sand was cool. it was breezy. I was looking down at my feet when I heard him putting his cup on the bench that we're sitting on.

-to be continued-

AAMAAAAAGAAAAASSSHH!!!

2010-11-08T04:05:00.001-08:00

another GAAAAH!!!

2010-11-07T04:29:00.000-08:00

GAHH!!!

another GAHHH!!!

u want to know me, again? they are as below: -

not one of the sensible lot.
so much likely to end up all on my own anytime.
don't speak when not told or asked (0_0).
quite impatient, actually.
stupid, for a start.
a big fan of harry potter.
can't wait for the last movies from the Harry Potter series.
or may be a happy-go-lucky sort of person, depends on the weather, my mood and situation.
liar.
honest.
LOL a lot
haven't had chicken pox yet, so, please stay away from me who is having it.
again, stupid.
the type of girl you don't usually see.
changing sides.
changing thoughts.
vengeance is my life's sugar and spice, i believe.
naaah...
friends are my lifesavers.
lost my generosity a while ago.
lost my sanity wayy back there.
short, for a moment.
fat. yes, i'm fat.
but to some people, which i believe seems to be,urm, insane..
i am a cuddly sort of person.
wow.
that's what you don't get to hear everyday.
and again, i am short.
seriously. maybe, actually.
and again, dumb.
not very competitive.
very interested in business.

I am dying to study in UK.
that would be a dream come true.
Christchurch would be a great place too. to make it simple, New Zealand.
or maybe, Melbourne.

sometimes, very ambitious.
let's just say, I have lost my sanity, again.
and i hate cruel people.
and yes, i might be cruel to YOU, thank you.

i wish to be a equestrian, thank you. (weird)

oh no... my forehead is abducted by something which is not a pimple.

2010-11-07T01:09:00.001-07:00

IKA, SERIOUSLY

2010-11-07T01:06:00.000-07:00

EVERYDAY MATTERS.

EVERY FRIENDSHIP HAS TO LAST.

EVERY MOMENT IS PRECIOUS.

EVERY TIME I SEE YOU,

EVEN THOUGH I LOOK AWAY,

YOU MUST KNOW MY HEART IS SMILING,

WAITING TO SAY HELLO AGAIN.

EVERY TIME WE FIGHT,

THERE IS ALWAYS THE TIME I REGRET.

EVERY TIME WE ARE PARTED,

FATE WANTS US TO STAY CLOSE AGAIN.

EVERY THING THAT I JUST WISH TO TELL YOU,

DON'T ACTUALLY COME OUT JUST EXACTLY HOW I WANT IT TO.

THOSE APOLOGIZING WORDS,

THEY'RE STUCK BETWEEN ME AND YOU.

I MEAN TO SAY SORRY,

BUT THERE ARE PEOPLE THAT ARE AROUND US,

THAT MAKES ME STOP.

SERIOUSLY.

SO I AM HERE TO SAY

THE VERY POWERFUL, MAGIC WORD,

WHICH NOT MANY PEOPLE WOULD'VE SAID IT SINCERELY (LIKE ME).

IKA,

I MAY NOT HAVE BOUGHT YOU A BOOK,

I MAY NOT HAVE BOUGHT YOU A GIFT FOR FORGIVENESS,

BUT I HAVE SOMETHING TO GIVE YOU,

SOMETHING WE SHOULD BOTH MEND,

SOMETHING THAT'S NOT WORTH NOT EVEN A TRILLION POUNDS,

SOMETHING THAT IS BROKEN,

THAT FELL APART,

IT SHOOK MY WORLD,

IT WAS STINGING PAINFUL,

A SHIP WE'VE BUILT,

BUT NOT SO STRONG.

IT'S SOMETHING I HOPE YOU CAN HELP ME IN FIXING.

I HOPE YOUR HEART IS STILL MUCH OPENED,

STILL OPENED FOR FORGIVENESS,

FOR I AM VERY SORRY,

VERY VERY SORRY,

BECAUSE I BROKE YOUR HEART,

BECAUSE I SAID THINGS TO YOU THAT I SHOULD NOT,

BECAUSE I'M SUCH A COWARD,

BECAUSE I'M NOT FAITHFUL,

BECAUSE I AM SO SPITEFUL,

BECAUSE I'M A BIG FAT LIAR,

BECAUSE I'M STUPID,

BECAUSE I'M EVERYTHING THAT COULD POSSIBLY HURT YOU.

WILL YOU FORGIVE ME?

I'D DO ANYTHING AS LONG AS YOU WILL.

I'D RESIGN FOR THE CLASS PARTY'S COMMITTEE MEMBERS,

I'D SAY SORRY IN FRONT OF THE CLASS,

ANYTHING (SENSIBLE, OF COURSE).

PLEEEEEEAAAASEEEE????

AS HOW MY BROTHER TOLD ME,

EVERY FRIENDSHIP IS EXACTLY LIKE A PROPER SHIP.

IT HAS GOT TO HIT TIDES AND WAVES,

AND OFTEN HAS CRACKS AND ACCIDENTS AND ALL THAT.

BUT IF WE DON'T FIX IT,

HOW CAN WE SAIL THROUGH THE OCEANS AGAIN?

I UNDERSTAND IF YOU STILL CAN'T FORGIVE ME

I GET IT.

IT'S NOW YOUR DECISION.

IT IS AS WELL MY FAULT.

=) =) =) =) =) =)

I HOPE YOU READ THIS AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!!!

<3 <3 <3

2010-11-07T00:41:00.001-07:00

Gaaaahh.... bilo nak dapat DSLR x tau laaa....

='(

2010-11-06T23:09:00.000-07:00

part 4.. of my story.... =_=" (search it in the august 2010 section) topic stai x best...nnt tukaq

2010-11-03T19:40:00.000-07:00

Priscilla: Ryan? what are you doing here? I thought you....

Ryan: well, yeah, technically i do have an exam. but it seems that the teacher was sick so she let us go earlier. Seems like you're not that busy, wanna come and eat with me? glares at Jason

Jason: Sorry, man. She's occupied.

Ryan: Oh, sorry then. Must've disturbed you two.

Priscilla: oh, no, not at all, right Jason?

Jason: hmmm.. rolls eyes

Priscilla: well, even if I'm occupied, I still have time to have brunch. and there's still room for another. You don't mind, do you Jason? I mean, just for brunch.

Jason: I thought I wanted to eat with you, just the two of us you know.. But if that's what you want then, I have no power but to obey my lady. T_T

Ryan: that's great! c'mon, Priscilla. grabs priscilla's hand and walk

Jason: Why do you have to disturb our lovely time?! walks slowly behind Ryan and Priscilla.

AT THE CAFETERIA

Jason: Pris, I'm gonna buy a drink. want one?

Priscilla: yeah sure. Thanks.

Ryan: hey, mind buying me one too?

Jason: buy one yourself! walk like mad....

Ryan: he's not in a good temper, is he?

Priscilla: I don't know.

ten minutes later.....

Jason: groans that was really slow.....

As soon as he reached his table....

Ryan kissing Priscilla's hand

Jason: Priscilla!!!! Ryan!!!

Priscilla pulling her hand

Priscilla: Jason, it's not what you think it is.

Jason: Oh really? what was I thinking? Let me see, Ryan kissing your hand, you quickly pull your hand when you see me and tremble, IT IS WHAT I THINK!!

Ryan: Jason, cool down man...

Jason: cool down? COOL DOWN?!?! Maybe you should think before trying to seduce someone's girlfriend!! How can I cool down when MY PRISCILLA is seduced?!

Priscilla: Jason!!! He wasn't seducing me! Trust me!!

Jason: TRUST YOU?! Are you mad?! How can I trust you after this?!

Priscilla: Jason, please! He wasn't seducing me!! What the hell happened to you?!

Jason: throws the drinks on the floor We're fine and cool just now, but after this RYAN came, I become this way! DO YOU KNOW WHY?!?! I'm mad!! I really am!! I'm mad about you! I don't know what I can do to make you stay away from HIM!! points to Ryan

Ryan: Hey, you're the one that stole her from me!! I found her first and you are the one that seduced her!! I'm just taking back what's mine!!!

Jason: you just wait! I heard you're good at skateboarding. Meet me at the skateboard stadium tomorrow at 8. Whoever wins, the prize would be Priscilla. the one who loses, can only be a friend of Priscilla. whoever breaks the rules, gets beaten up by the opponents' gang. No interruption either. Deal?

Ryan: Pfft. It's on!

++++++++++++++to be continued++++++++++++++

dah habis tengok Harry Potter

2010-11-03T18:40:00.000-07:00

yes.

recently i have been watching the whole series.

HARRY POTTER~

now,

looking forward for the last piece of it.

the seventh

the last

but, it will a long wait.

better yet it would be in two parts

that would make me suffer more...

sweat

my brother said,

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, part 1

wouldn't come sooner that 3 weeks from now

maybe 1 month

T_T

and I wonder when will the 2nd part would come.

double sweat

*sigh*

well, i might've just wait then..

nothing else that I can do....

HARRY POTTER #1 FAN

maybe I am that sort of person

maybe not

i found it very interesting just last week...

now, i am a big fan of it

^_^

now, i just can't wait for it

the time range from now is just too long

huhuhuhu

please come soon, HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS!!!

today's lunch menu

2010-11-03T00:57:00.000-07:00

Nasi putih bersama sup, semangkuk
ditambah kicap pedas gila2, tiga sudu teh
dua ketul ayam rendang
XDDD

2010-11-02T01:28:00.000-07:00

gaaaah....

i think Geo was hard...
maths wasn't..
weeeeee~
aaaah....
tomorrow would be science paper 2 and... arts paper 1 and civic i guess
ahhhh
but who cares... i know many people do.
but, i'm going yo watch Harry Potter now.
Goblet of Fire if you want to know.
Can't wait for the last one
which is Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows
so
GTG
byeee~

UWAAAAAHH!!! I Miss him so much.... i guess

2010-11-02T01:19:00.001-07:00

and with sarah, means, don't know yet.... baby it's fact? misery? vanilla twilight? sweat

2010-11-02T00:59:00.001-07:00

innocence is the song from shu, which also, i will duet with

2010-11-02T00:57:00.001-07:00

slipping through my fingers is meli's song, and i will duet with her

2010-11-02T00:56:00.001-07:00

A great fan of Avril Lavigne

2010-11-01T07:09:00.007-07:00

A fan of PARAMORE

2010-11-01T07:09:00.005-07:00

Surely not a fan of Justin Bieber, thank you

2010-11-01T07:09:00.003-07:00

EPIC FAIL! --"

2010-11-01T07:09:00.001-07:00

bla bla bla..... rubber duckie squeaking like someone nagging(?) XDD

2010-11-01T07:08:00.001-07:00

renew post yang lepas...

2010-11-01T07:02:00.000-07:00

ehehehhe... sorry. post tadi tu tak jadi pulak. ni buat baru pulak.. :D

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Tengs sangat - sangat kat korang yang follow aku. Aku tau, blog aku ni ntah apa - apa, enn. bukti dia, post yg sebelum ni punya. karut lebih.

so now, basically, i have 17 followers. A great big thanks to you guys. and also, congrats to Ilyani sebab dia berjaya buat blog dia. to my followers, aku tak tau apa yang bagus pasai blog aku ni tapi trimas gila - gila sebab follow blog aku.... :D

so, lepas ni, aku try buat posts yang berkualiti sebab, tak lama lagi nak cuti dah. time - time cuti ni, aku nak testing otak, buat citer2 pendek or panjang.. bagi penuh blog ni ngan cerita - cerita yang aku tak tau akan berjalan sepenuhnya or, macam besa, tertangguh macam crita ari tuuh. and kalau rajin nanti, aku sambung laaa...

entah apa tak tau, tadi plan nak type. habis hilang idea aku. XD nanti arh kalau ingat balik, type lain..

and again....

thanks for the follow!!!

:DDDDD

rubber duckie madness~ O_O

believe it

2010-11-01T06:54:00.000-07:00

Aku tau post ni bodo tapi.... aku syok terlebih sebab ada 17 followers. :D bodo pun bodo pi laa... yea la kan some people ada banyak lagi followers, tapi nak buat camna, blog aku ni memang stai noob, habaq ang....

aku di sini, nak mintak sorry gila kalau aku ngutuk orang kat sini, sebab kadang, nak lepas geram, takut tak kena tempat. so, blog ni ja yang ada. sebab blog ni x bising kalau kita komplen sampai tahap dewa arimasen segalanya.

tapi yang x tahan tu, oeang lain yang bising pulak la, enn... eyh suka hati mak bapak aku sama laa kalau aku nak post apa2 pun kat sini. tolong jangan menyibuk pasai post2 aku. kalau aku sakitkan hati ang pun, cakap je laa.. memang stai blog post x bleyh delete sama noh. hang toksah dok kalut laa. ada pernah aku kacau blog ang ka? tak kan?

kalau dah faham means, tengs la sebab tak kacau. tapi kalau pemikiran stai tak makan saman, aku nak buat camna... mampoih pi la kat ang. malaih aku nak amek kesah pun. tengok. aku asal nak kasik penghargaan kat orang yang follow aku pun x jadi...
haish...

sat2

pi buat post baru.

*apologies, people...*

not something i could expect

2010-11-01T06:42:00.000-07:00

Hey, guys. well, as you can see, I've been into a little bit of a quarrel lately..(did you actually notice?) well, since last Thursday, my school is facing the final year examination. so, today's exam? well, it's supposed to turn out pretty fine, but it didn't. I actually forgot something that I just came by to read 15 minutes before the exam starts and I forgotten every bit of it.... How unlucky!

well, History turned out to be way worse than I thought. It was a NIGHTMARE. I couldn't think of another horrifying exam other than History. Well, I hope tomorrow's exam, which would be Maths and Geography, will turn out fine....

Urgh, and, as I was talking about Geography, I still haven't passed up my folio. Which is why, I and Sarah stayed back at school just now. But, well, unfortunately for me and Sarah, she lost the 'peta lakar'. HUHUHUHUHU.... but we had fun. Haiqal joined us. And we sure did a lot of crapping stuff back there. teasing each other on the blackboard. And, I actually forget the whole point of staying back at school (for a while).

So, goodbye, Agama Islam and History examination. Hello Mathematics and Geography. -,-" I think I surely won't get an A for my Geography. I mean, Zaidatul borrowed my book and I don't know where the hell did it go. I think she didn't pass it up for me, too. huhuhuhu. I sure won't get the 20 marks then.... hwaaaaaaaa......~!!!! *dead meat* stupid me for being so stupidly nice to people. Now, look what i have done to myself!!! *banging my head on the wall, damn hard!*

*sigh*

serves me right for ignoring such precious 20 marks... T_T

*20 marks, flying away~~~~*

buhbye 20 marks... see you somewhere soon, i hope....

2010-10-29T02:01:00.000-07:00

I FELL IN LOVE WITH JULIA SHEER!!!! ACTUALLY, MAKE IT AS I FELL IN LOVE WITH HER VOICE

2010-10-28T18:58:00.000-07:00

that's what I call SETUPIDOS PEOPLE

2010-10-28T18:38:00.001-07:00

MORNING!!!!!!

2010-10-28T18:19:00.000-07:00

My day started very fine indeed. Had a normal Friday breakfast. Toast and butter. Out of kaya spread. Out of chocolate spread too. *I just hope mom and dad would bring us to Tesco tomorrow....* And this morning, at last Pumpkin learned to eat the bread with butter. Or she'd be craving for bread that I just won't give cause it has butter.

I'm supposed to go for a tuition class today. But obviously I'm skipping it. Too lazy to care..

I'm waiting for someone other than Asyraf to come online on Facebook. It's getting pretty boring although I just came here 30 minutes ago.

And hell yeah, I got into a sort of arguement with someone for something. Hell it's calming my mind..... Seriously

anyways, a HUGE thanks for Asyraf!!! :DDD

I wish to visit a spectacle shop :D

2010-10-28T17:40:00.000-07:00

Bonia
Ray Ban
Monica
and whatever else...
I just want to go and 'usyar' the cool specs that I just could find
maybe, in future, like, waktu holidays
I want to visit Sarah's dad's specs shop :D

huhuhuhuhuhu
Ray Ban's awesomeness~
I just love it
but sometimes, people wear coloured specs...
creeps me out... =_="

but, it's their sense of style, so, no comments..

:DDDDDD
i just love spectacle shops just as much as i love bags(?)

PFFT!!!
yeah...
i'm a weirdo
SO?
LOL.....
dah, nnt tambah karut lagi ada...

x taw nak apa dari hang...

2010-10-28T07:03:00.001-07:00

2010-10-28T06:56:00.000-07:00

ye laa.. aku salah.... sorry.....
buat la macam ni kat aku banyak-banyak lagi...
aku syok gila dapat buat keje mendadak camni
memang patut buat camtuuh pun
thanks gila nohh

2010-10-28T06:36:00.000-07:00

oh please....

2010-10-28T03:27:00.000-07:00

nyehnyehnyehnyeh
bosan laaa
sarah x on
dia pi tidoq

lama tak tulis crita
nanti waktu cuti, janji buat crita apa2
yang panjang-panjang tau
so, nanti tengok - tengok la blog ni
minggu ni exam
so, x taw berapa kerap nak update

trimas

oh yeah

BTW, ilyani and I
kitorang nak buat komik karot2
so, tunggulah kemunculan komik tu kalau jadi

storyboard = me!!!
drawings = ilyani and me!!!!

dah laaa
nak mandi
x pun, pi study
malam nanti update lagi
:DDD

The Great Search Of My Identity

OH geez

Dude, where'd you put your guts? And, jangan dok fikir aku nak ambil tau sangat 'bout what you do.

Please, a favour that I ask you, whoever you are -sigh-

Crying

Angry Birds as A World Phenomenon - Say WHAAAAAAAT????

Back. :)

My Facebook is Missing!!! * surprised -,- *

Quarreled about KAYA :D

First Day of Fasting (And Raya :D)

Anwar Hadi and the rest of it.

differences :)

Future dream :D

Current obsessions :D

Choral Speaking :O

sometimes.... all i have to do is smile.

Exam oh Exam, Cuti oh Cuti

random

Happy Birthday Meli!!!

Listening to PARAMORE and Panic! At The Disco

Main.

short.

post yg gedik + merepek....

facebook... getting boring? yes.

dunno

macam email pulak.

LATE

-no title yet-

good things and bad things about being sick

KYUHYUN :)

Justin Bieber

Sarah Lee Ann,thanks for making my day. :DDD

tukang kacau, tak puas hati apa dengan aku tak tau laa.. bullshit

damn damn damn

Play My Music~

2011 determinations

random...

Nikon D3100!!! :D

i just love these pictures

Hmmmm....

Parents Went Out To Penang.... Stuck at home

On The Bright Side, my favourite song for now... :DD

nak tulis cerita tapi malas nak type... :D

yaya, saya emo, dan saya bangga saya emo kadang2

NIGHTMARE - continued

NIGHTMARE

AAMAAAAAGAAAAASSSHH!!!

another GAAAAH!!!

oh no... my forehead is abducted by something which is not a pimple.

IKA, SERIOUSLY

='(

part 4.. of my story.... =_=" (search it in the august 2010 section) topic stai x best...nnt tukaq

dah habis tengok Harry Potter

today's lunch menu

UWAAAAAHH!!! I Miss him so much.... i guess

and with sarah, means, don't know yet.... baby it's fact? misery? vanilla twilight? *sweat*

innocence is the song from shu, which also, i will duet with

slipping through my fingers is meli's song, and i will duet with her

A great fan of Avril Lavigne

A fan of PARAMORE

Surely not a fan of Justin Bieber, thank you

EPIC FAIL! --"

bla bla bla..... rubber duckie squeaking like someone nagging(?) XDD

renew post yang lepas...

not something i could expect

I FELL IN LOVE WITH JULIA SHEER!!!! ACTUALLY, MAKE IT AS I FELL IN LOVE WITH HER VOICE

that's what I call SETUPIDOS PEOPLE

MORNING!!!!!!

I wish to visit a spectacle shop :D

x taw nak apa dari hang...

and with sarah, means, don't know yet.... baby it's fact? misery? vanilla twilight? sweat