Please, a favour that I ask you, whoever you are -sigh-

OK so I'm not trying to hurt anyone or anything through this post so I am really sorry if anyone feels offended, that is anyone who reads my lame lame lame lame lame lame lame lame lame lame blog. :)


Everything is actually confusing my mind right now, not that I give a piece of shit about these things but, well, it's kind of disturbing when you don't have anything to think/say, and you start to think about these confusing situations and conversations etc.


It's nothing personal but I and some people (well, actually, specific people) quarrel on the simplest and smallest thing you can ever dream of. Well, you can guess why we fight and you'll be like, "LAAAA, liddat oso you guys mau fight ah? Haiyoooo ini budak2 zaman sekarang manyak susah mau gaaaaaadoooooo aja.x ada menda lain kah?...." ok i know i'm starting to crap and exaggerate. But seriously and I mean SERIOUSLY this has got to end somehow and someday. Because these kind of fights really do tire me down. Plus, sekarang kan nak exam dah, so taktau lah nak teruskan ke tak.


I know it's partially my fault and, who knows I actually am the one who started this cold war? But to the ones that understand what I mean, please forgive my mulut yang suka cakap banyak ni because it's my nature and I always have this resentment that I keep deep in my heart. To be truthful, most teens/tweens keep their resentment even though they asked for forgiveness from/forgave someone. 


I just can't control myself and neither can you. I don't really mind if you don't want to accept my apology, not that this thing ain't important to me. But I have done my part to stop this........ whatever this actually is. And please, I don't want things to really turn out so bad and it affects all this crap things we're gonna get through.


And to be frank............ (i hate being frank.)


Everyone is important to me and I try my best to provide an equal justice to everyone and everything because I don't want to hurt anyone and anything just because of what I said or did. And I just hope one day everyone / anyone that listens to what I frankly tell them about what I feel about them won't get offended because it's from my point of view and it's not even half important.


Sigh


i keep saying these kind of things but I get scared because I'm really not that confident to tell people about what crosses my mind because I actually think about what people will say about me.


I'm sorry and I'm truly sorry.


I beg you, everyone who reads this, to really tell me what you feel about me. Because things are getting too hard for me.


Please.